Mindbender's Action Bronson Diss (song + story inside maybe)

[Y@k Bollocks]

Julius Seizure, beautifully, articulately and extremely accurately stated.

And will he heed the advice? Will he fuck.

[drizzle]

Julius Seizure, beautifully, articulately and extremely accurately stated.

srsly that was the best summation of MB i've seen here in 10 years of posting

[GUCCI CONDOMS]

You didn't make a song and keep it moving. You made a song, and promoted it publicly. And voiced got opinion on twitter. And Facebook. And in comments sections. And now months later on this board. You did anything but keep it moving.

My thoughts as to why? You crave attention, good or bad. You crave validation. You received little validation for your music, or not enough to meet your needs, and you have now moved on to porn to find another venue where you will be validated. You need validation from many, many women because one would never be enough; there could never be enough. It isn't about a love of sex or a worshipping of women. It is about the need to find value in yourself through contact with others. You crave validation on this website. "I'm going to have sex right now." "I'm having appointments for sex with three different goddesses today." And your constant denial of this is proof positive that this is the case. "I don't care what you people think." "I don't need to impress anybody." Yes, you do. Validation is air to you. You need it for survival. When you get even the smallest, or backhandedest, or sarcastic, or facetious, or genuine compliment from someone on here, you lap it up like a dog after a long walk on a hot day. That person automatically becomes your friend, your homey, you ally. They are down with you and all your stand for. When you are criticized without some measure of praise to balance the criticism, you lash out angrily, unleashing frightening anger, and ungodly venom. For someone so godly and above it all, you string together combinations of hate filled words as effortlessly as any troll on the internet. There is deep anger and resentment and yes, hate, that resides in your subconscious. Even a person who has been perceived as an ally becomes an enemy if they do not provide validation. You continue to post music in a place where you have been ruthlessly attacked for years, where people don't enjoy your art. You (and your bro) crave validation from American hip hop fans; you will argue this point, and you certainly love to attack our country, but deep down you want to be accepted by the country that created your art form. Even when you cannot get praise or positive attention, you will settle for hate and negative responses from people, because at least you have gotten someone's attention, at least you know you exist on this planet if people have taken the time to insult and attack and mock you.

I am not trying to attack you. I am giving you my thoughts, even though they have not been asked for. Why can't you truly be a happy with who you are? Why do you have this emptiness that must be filled with approval, validation, attention from others? Has it always been this way? Don't you ever stop to think about how desperate this craving has become?

@Req

yo bro, imma need you to speak on this. I know you know bender IRL. Seriously bro, what the fuck is wrong with this guy?

[ackbar]

this website is full of posters who seek validation (including myself)
it does puzzle me when people are so quick to deny this type of analysis tho. maybe i'm just overly familiar with the language of therapy, obsessed with introspection & highly self-critical.. but it sort of reminds me of the time Employee violently denied the possibility he may be addicted to the internet

saying you seek validation isn't even necessarily a criticism. i would wager 100% of rappers do on some level. performers and creative types are usually some sort of a mixture of confident & insecure. it's more about understanding your brain & emotions, so you can use it to your advantage to be the most successful version of yourself.. and not let certain parts of it overtake you or become debilitating

[peanut butter]

I dont think the post is critical of MB searching for validation, but rather to the extent which he does. You're right, most of us want it to some degree. It's just not everyone is so manically fueled by it that they become a pariah.


PEACE

[ackbar]

yea.. don't look into my post too much.
i just posted it because i wanted people to think i'm smart and wanted to make myself feel better as if i actually apply my knowledge & seek self-improvement instead of regulating all of thoughts & emotions with drugs & alcohol

[drizzle]

#notallposters

[Julius Seizure]

Ack - denial is a defense mechanism that protects the ego from an idea, feeling, situation, thought, reality that it is not yet able or ready to process. Acceptance comes when it comes.

Denial functions differently in addiction sometimes. Because addiction starts in the non-thinking, non-feeling survival mechanisms of the mid brain, sometimes the rational, logical outer cortex must create a narrative/rationale/justification to make sense of the sometimes irrational and primal drives of the mid brain. For example, the rational brain has decided, "I never want to use heroin again, and I will not." And then a craving is triggered, the midbrain is activated, and the unrelenting push and drive of the brain's "go system" overpowers the rational controls of the outer cortex. All the logical reasons for not using heroin fail, and someone gets high on dope. Because the rational brain has lost that battle, it needs to create a narrative for why this was OK. And that's where the justification, the "lying", the rationalization, the "excuse making", the "permission giving thought" is generated. It was ok to shoot dope because I can use just once and control it (even though I never have been able to before). It was ok to use dope because fuck you, nobody can tell me what to do. Because nobody will know. Because the world is a dark place. Because all my problems are fixed when I'm lit. Because I'll only do it on weekends or after work.

None of that makes any sense whatsoever if you've decided to give up your addiction for good, but when the go system overpowers the stop system, all logic and rational thought and higher level executive functioning goes out the fucking window.

I might be wrong about mindbender, I've never met him. But like ack says, you might as well give it some thoughtful consideration before you completely dismiss it.

[Versive]

[Mindbender Futurama]

#notallposters

finally.

Drizzle, I don't see you as someone who seeks validation. This is who you are. You are a clever witty guy. You speak on it. People can agree or disagree. You carry on thinking how you think.

This is exactly how the fuck I am.

I can see what time it is. If you guys REALLY think I come here because I need validation, then you don't have a single fucking clue who I truly am and you have not been understanding a word I have said, on a deeper level than just shits and giggles.

I AM GOD. I don't need ANY of you to "validate" that truth in my fucking REAL life, OFF of Philaflava or ON Philaflava. I am the ONLY person here who actually has a theory they have been proposing and expressing and manifesting since moment one, and none of you have been able to completely eradicate or disassemble the concept of "we are Gods in a Beautiful Heaven on Earth". NONE of you motherfuckers validate or support or co-sign my idea, so what the fuck kind of crack are you all smoking to think that me begging for your never-coming acceptance, and irrelevant validation, is going to make me any happier than the guy who has been posting on this website for 10 years saying "I am God, I live in Heaven now, and you are all creators of your own joy/pain".

You guys really think I'm not happy in my day to day life doing rap & porn?
You really think I am waiting for the day you collectively say you like one of my songs??
You really think I need ANY of you people's psychological support to keep posting my thoughts here???

to the fucking top of my tits.

and the sad thing is: you guys think that some mob mentality agreement with some flimsy fucking thought ACTUALLY MAKES IT TRUE. to the fucking bottom of my balls.
Go ahead, ASK REQ. Ask ANYONE in real life how the fuck I'm doing and if I'm happy with my reality and my life.

You guys think I need you to validate me as Mindbender Supreme the MC, Adhimu Stewart the journalist or Malcolm Lovejoy the porn star???

FUCK ALL IGNORANT LIVING. You fail at understanding.

BASICALLY, ALL I am EVER trying to do is converse with hip hop heads from other cities to see what their world is like compared to mine, and also speak to anyone intelligent enough to see that we have the power to create our own reality, and that reality can be as fantasy-filled as our fears and courage allows it to be.
Is anyone here that smart?
Peanut Butter? Versive? Julius Seizure? NaturalBorn? Spartan? JASON FUCKING GLOSS???? PARAGRAPH THUN???!!

i know Sluggo sean is that smart. which is probably why he's left this place. i'm getting sick of preaching to the perverted. you all want to deny your own heaven? you all want to be stubborn brats and fight my ideology just because you like being an inner devil worshipper? you want to deny the wisdom in my words because of your ignorant perception of my existence? fine. go fucking be an idiot AWAY from my posts and my world. who needs shitheads like you in their life? i've tried more times than anyone else to be nice to the assholes. you can't be civilized? THEN RAPE YOURSELF, ASSCUNT.

motherfucker, the picture is proof that i don't really care about the ignorance here, as the picture is evidence that i'm REALLY happy in other places that are NOT Phila. this place does NOT validate that picture's beauty. and i don't give a fuck if ALL of you think she's a divebar slampig deuce. i don't post everything here and i don't share a lot of my articles or experiences here anymore. MANY of the minds here are far too weak to consider and comprehend my truth.

I see what time it is. Time for me to become an iCON. Peace to the FEW cats here that still practice THE LOST ART OF CONTRIBUTING TO A HIP HOP COMMUNITY. If y'all ain't into that, and ain't into honestly getting with sexy women... then I can't relate to you, and I'll keep doing what I did after I made 'Pig on a String': i'll just KEEP IT MOVING TOWARDS HEAVENLY INTERNAL ENLIGHTENMENT. Hate and fear and ignore me all you want, boys.

:KANYESHRUG:

MINDBENDER LOVES YOU
RAP IS OUTTA CONTROL
AND YOTMB FOREVER

[Versive]

Cause his name's Bender too ... get it?

[seagrams hotsauce]

You didn't make a song and keep it moving. You made a song, and promoted it publicly. And voiced got opinion on twitter. And Facebook. And in comments sections. And now months later on this board. You did anything but keep it moving.

My thoughts as to why? You crave attention, good or bad. You crave validation. You received little validation for your music, or not enough to meet your needs, and you have now moved on to porn to find another venue where you will be validated. You need validation from many, many women because one would never be enough; there could never be enough. It isn't about a love of sex or a worshipping of women. It is about the need to find value in yourself through contact with others. You crave validation on this website. "I'm going to have sex right now." "I'm having appointments for sex with three different goddesses today." And your constant denial of this is proof positive that this is the case. "I don't care what you people think." "I don't need to impress anybody." Yes, you do. Validation is air to you. You need it for survival. When you get even the smallest, or backhandedest, or sarcastic, or facetious, or genuine compliment from someone on here, you lap it up like a dog after a long walk on a hot day. That person automatically becomes your friend, your homey, you ally. They are down with you and all your stand for. When you are criticized without some measure of praise to balance the criticism, you lash out angrily, unleashing frightening anger, and ungodly venom. For someone so godly and above it all, you string together combinations of hate filled words as effortlessly as any troll on the internet. There is deep anger and resentment and yes, hate, that resides in your subconscious. Even a person who has been perceived as an ally becomes an enemy if they do not provide validation. You continue to post music in a place where you have been ruthlessly attacked for years, where people don't enjoy your art. You (and your bro) crave validation from American hip hop fans; you will argue this point, and you certainly love to attack our country, but deep down you want to be accepted by the country that created your art form. Even when you cannot get praise or positive attention, you will settle for hate and negative responses from people, because at least you have gotten someone's attention, at least you know you exist on this planet if people have taken the time to insult and attack and mock you.

I am not trying to attack you. I am giving you my thoughts, even though they have not been asked for. Why can't you truly be a happy with who you are? Why do you have this emptiness that must be filled with approval, validation, attention from others? Has it always been this way? Don't you ever stop to think about how desperate this craving has become?

you guys aren't as important as you think. i'm just a generous guy. i wish some of y'all could understand that, LOL. i also value community, so i carry on the tradition of HHI and try to talk to a group of hip hop heads. sometimes it works here. lately... it doesn't. :kanyeshrug:
FYI: I do not crave validation. I am simply documenting my evolution somewhere in the world besides my own head and diary. case closed. you guys are fucking delusional to think that nobody likes my music. I don't care if any of you don't like it. I am collaborating with other people around the world and in my city and I like my life and career and music and love my future and my potential.

And I only respect INTELLIGENCE. You don't have to agree with me for me to like you. You just have to EDUCATE me. And if you don't say some stupid bullshit speculation about what you THINK my real life is like, and you say some genuinely smart shit about whatever subject we are discussing, I will appreciate it, and thank you for making it worth my time coming here. And if you happen to be a man above the savages, and you publicly express appreciation and respect for humanity and evolution and advanced perceptions of existence such as the irrefutable possibility we are all Gods creating our own universe in every second, then I will show you love and respect, because it's the truth I see with. BUT I DON'T NEED ANY OF YOU MOTHERFUCKERS TO VALIDATE OR NOT VALIDATE THAT IDEA FOR ME TO CONTINUE LIVING IN HEAVEN WITH THAT THOUGHT!

"I don't need validation! You're all stupid and my god is the one true god! I DON'T NEED VALIDATION!!!!"

[Julius Seizure]

Hey man. Sorry you disagree with my perceptions. I regret posting them in m2c; definitely better for p&b. I have not met you in real life; I think you'd find me to be an intelligent person if we did. I don't think I've expressed myself in a simplistic or uneducated way, but I understand that you feel strongly that I am wrong, and I can see why you reacted with strong anger. I try to call it like i see it, but in retrospect I probably was out of place commenting on that stuff. To some degree, you do open yourself to it with the level of self disclosure that you choose to make publicly, but clearly my thoughts were it well received. All I ask is that you judge my ideas on their own merit, and not based on who agrees of disagrees or piggybacks on what I write. Hustler is a clown, and i could live without him building on my posts to attack you personally. C'est la vie. Peace.

[Mindbender Futurama]

Hey man. Sorry you disagree with my perceptions. I regret posting them in m2c; definitely better for p&b. I have not met you in real life; I think you'd find me to be an intelligent person if we did. I don't think I've expressed myself in a simplistic or uneducated way, but I understand that you feel strongly that I am wrong, and I can see why you reacted with strong anger. I try to call it like i see it, but in retrospect I probably was out of place commenting on that stuff. To some degree, you do open yourself to it with the level of self disclosure that you choose to make publicly, but clearly my thoughts were it well received. All I ask is that you judge my ideas on their own merit, and not based on who agrees of disagrees or piggybacks on what I write. Hustler is a clown, and i could live without him building on my posts to attack you personally. C'est la vie. Peace.

Rational, reasonable, respectable... almost makes me feel resplendent that we've reached such a level of righteous communication in the realms of hellish, hate-oozing, weak-minded, YOTMB life speculators. I thank you and send respect to you for having the cerebral capacity to re-evaluate your own perceptions, and measure and weigh them in comparison to mine (which are admittedly radical and unique... but are in no way actually stupid or illogical, contrary to popular belief).

I would agree with your perceptions if they had any of my reality in them. But honestly... they just don't.

And honestly, I really don't post for validation. I post for BASIC HUMAN EXPRESSION. Like, 95% of you guys HATE ME AND ALWAYS HAVE HATED ME. I'd have to be sooo stupid to keep coming back here trying to get you guys to like me. But I'm NOT stupid, and I'm NOT trying to get you guys to like me. I'm just spreading my truth, that's really all there is to it. Take it or leave it. I just have this thing in my head where I feel like it's the hip hop thing to do to stay connected to a community of heads. And I chose Philaflava as my online community. That's why I keep coming back here. Not because I need validation from a career-long reality/truth hater like gucci condumbz. But yo I totally feel you on another level: HUZZLER IS THE WORST GUY HERE

that being said... maybe I should pass my crown over to someone else.
I've got 3 porn photoshoots in a row scheduled this weekend! that's right: THREE IN 3 DAYS!
TRUST ME GUYS, I DON'T GIVE A FUCK ABOUT YOUR STUPID THOUGHTS
if anyone writes any smart thoughts, I will learn from them.

be an intriguingly smart guy, not a fucking idiotic wise-ass :gayzoos:

[Kace]

What about James Brown? He was often abusive towards women as well.

[AWAE]

it would be hilarious if this whole thread turned out to be actually condescending towards women

[Mindbender Futurama]

What about James Brown? He was often abusive towards women as well.

yeah. NOT a fan of the abuse James Brown did.

he was also a very VERY abused child himself. his story isn't so simple.

black is outta control

PEACE TO SILLY KID THO

[Dope(Sick)]

What about James Brown? He was often abusive towards women as well.

yeah. NOT a fan of the abuse James Brown did.

he was also a very VERY abused child himself. his story isn't so simple.

black is outta control

PEACE TO SILLY KID THO

Maybe Action Bronson used to get his little chubby boy tits juggled everyday on the subway.

[Mindbender Futurama]

What about James Brown? He was often abusive towards women as well.

yeah. NOT a fan of the abuse James Brown did.

he was also a very VERY abused child himself. his story isn't so simple.

black is outta control

PEACE TO SILLY KID THO

Maybe Action Bronson used to get his little chubby boy tits juggled everyday on the subway.

if he did, then i would find some sympathy for the devil

[step one]

I've got 3 porn photoshoots in a row scheduled this weekend! that's right: THREE IN 3 DAYS!

What you gonna do with that $60 though?

[Mindbender Futurama]

I've got 3 porn photoshoots in a row scheduled this weekend! that's right: THREE IN 3 DAYS!

What you gonna do with that $60 though?

ahhhhh... hilarious. So, so bitter. You disgrace yourself further, good sir. Keep the hate up!

[step one]

Learn to laugh at yourself. It's good for you.

[Mindbender Futurama]

Learn to laugh at yourself. It's good for you.

you think I wasn't laughing at myself when my dick-tucking gayface picture wasn't posted online?

I repeatedly call myself God... but I express half my "Heaven is on earth" message in CARTOON EMOTICONS

don't tell me how to live, mang. trust me, I know how to have fun and laugh. at myself, and other jokes. LIKE YOU.

[Tweak Da Leak]

Wait MB you really doing porn now? Like shows or actual videos? I always thought it was hard for niggas to break into the porn industry.

[glasshandralphie]

Wait MB you really doing porn now? Like shows or actual videos? I always thought it was hard for niggas to break into the porn industry.

Well, MB said it was easier for him to get into making straight porn because he was willing to do a few gay scenes first. That's how a lot of newcomers are getting their start these days.

[Mindbender Futurama]

Wait MB you really doing porn now? Like shows or actual videos? I always thought it was hard for niggas to break into the porn industry.

yes, I am doing porn. I am shooting another scene tomorrow actually.

I am going to be doing a LOT of sex work. I am a mother fucking sacred whore, by choice. My sexual labor is worth a lot of money, and the demand and value is rising every week. Peep the polyamory thread for a hint of

I also am going to be doing a lot of writing and social justice work. Sexual rights are the last civil rights on earth. If people aren't sexually free, they aren't free at all. That's partly why I chose the name "Malcolm Lovejoy" as my porn name. Straight Malcolm X of sex. No shame. I am not a Christian or a Muslim. I am a Goddess Worshipper. I make Love to women. Pretty much every motherfucking day of my life now. Like today. And yesterday. And tomorrow. And Monday. And

sometimes it's on camera, sometimes it's not.

but, ohhhhh boy is it ever happening!

and to answer your question: yeah, there IS a shitty amount of racism in the porn biz, and there are some things that aren't happening for me because I'm black, EVEN IN TORONTO, believe it or not. but sadly, businesses can discriminate all they want. it's their money :kanyeshrug:

i still am doing what i can to spread peace, love, and

Wait MB you really doing porn now? Like shows or actual videos? I always thought it was hard for niggas to break into the porn industry.

Well, MB said it was easier for him to get into making straight porn because he was willing to do a few gay scenes first. That's how a lot of newcomers are getting their start these days.

do you feel better, in your creepy crawly skin, to lie so blatantly on the internet, and think that, because you don't ACTUALLY KNOW the people you are lying about, that it's okay to do it?

damn, your mental behavior is weak.

worth repeating: